Orange Vanilla Sundae

A long day yesterday. Did not go home on Thursday. Did not sleep well. Did not go on lunch with Lab mates. Adviser kept me waiting till 1:15 for the meeting. He drops ideas like changing clothes everyday. Gosh he appears a creep to me sometimes. Moved around in the Red Link. Tell you its route is REALLY long. 

After the meeting disgusted me completely, I just wanted to get out of the office. It was hot in the room and I was really tired and down. Nobody  likes to change of topics by the day. So I wondered around the campus to see the Arts Festival. Nothing special. All the things are highly priced. The most unique and interesting caption that I saw was "VICTORIA"S SEXTION'. Being a foodie I tried to find the things I could gorge on. Strawberry Smoothie was good although 4$. They played nice music in the central park. Then I went to sleep in the nearby garden. Tell you six hours of sleep is great and life seems to be difficult the next day when you do not get that. 

Enough of sad story. Now the good or the delicious part. Yep the orange vanilla sundae. The server told me that it would not feel good in the cone and gave me in the cup. At first I was annoyed of missing out on con but the taste was so good and romantic(yeah so many american girls to stare at!!) 

Missing my family dearly

There comes a time in life when whoever you are or how much tougher you may be, situations and troubles in life bring you down on your knees. That's what I have been feeling of late. I am just getting weird dreams of my parents, especially Mom. She always comforted me with her sweet and simple words. Even her email in morning brought tears in my eyes. I wish I could just meet them any how. Its becoming difficult to face the situation here.

Not that swimming helps me unwind, but still I feel a big void in my life here. A void that only the family can fill. After 6:30 in the evening I just dread what's going to be my calender. I wasn't so unstable and uncertain at any point in my life. It may seem that I am exaggerating but it isn't funny either. Its like being lost in place for almost an year and I am yet to hit a shore. 

FIRST STAT'S CLASS

SO THE SUMMER SESSION STARTED. HAD THE FIRST CLASS TODAY. THE COURSE IS ENTIRELY DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I HAD EXPECTED. AFTER TWO SEMESTERS OF REAL STRUGGLE, I WAS FINALLY ABLE TO IMPROVE IN CSE COURSES. NOW A STAT COURSE! NOT SURE WHAT I AM DOING. WHY TAKING A STAT COURSE? TO IMPROVE THE LOW GPA. ANOTHER SHORTCUT IN LIFE. MOST OF THEM HAVEN'T REAPED SWEET FRUITS. HOPE THIS ONE DOES.

LATELY FEELING A LITTLE LOW. THE FEAR OF NOT GETTING A JOB AFTER COMPLETING M.S IS PULLING ME DOWN. THEN THE FUNDING SCENE IS ALSO NOT VERY BRIGHT. THOUGHTS OF GOING BACK EMPTY HANDED SENDS SHIVERS DOWN THE SPINE. THE ONLY HOPE IS SOME LUCK COMING MY WAY.

SOMEHOW THE BURDEN OF A POOR ACADEMICS IS SO MUCH THAT I HAVE STOPPED ENJOYING LIFE. STRANGE THOUGHTS COME IN MIND. WISH I COULD JUST DISCONNECT IT AND KEEP IT IN COLD STORAGE!!! I HAVE GIVEN UP ON MYSELF. LEAVING EVERYTHING TO THE GOOD OLD 'GOD'.

BLOG GONE OFF LINE

HAD TO DO IT. WROTE ABOUT SOMEONE, WHO MENTIONED IT BACK TO ME. IT WASN'T THE RESPONSE I EXPECTED. BUT IN THE AGE OF WEB 2.0 ANYBODY CAN CATCH ANYONE WITH PANTS DOWN. THIS WASN'T THE ONLY REASON. SOMEONE C WHO LIKED READING THIS BLOG CALLED ME A 'LONER'. MY MONDAY GOT WASTED TRYING TO PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I AM NOT A 'LONER'. THE FACT THAT IT TOOK SO LONG SUGGESTED THAT HE IS RIGHT. BUT THE 'EVIL' IN ME DID NOT STOP ME FROM CHANGING THE 'URL' OF THE BLOG. 

I DO NOT INTEND TO PUBLISH THIS BLOG AGAIN. SO I HAVE DECIDED THAT I SHALL WRITE WHAT I PLEASE. WHAT I WANT. WHAT I HATE. WHAT I LOVE.